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MNL's Christmas Blog
Sunday, December 28, 2008
The Bells of St Mary's, I hear they are ringing
Mood:  special

Becky, Elena, and I all went to grade school at St Mary's School, LIC, Queens, in the 1960s.  I graduated eighth grade from a public school, IS 61 Q.  Anyway, on Christmas Eve, after the service at New Life Fellowship, Becky and I decided to go to the service at St. Mary's Church.  We got confused about the starting time, and we took a taxi to get there on time.  Once there, Becky decided to invite Ken, too.  He and Margie had gone to a service in their own church.

 So Becky and I got there in time, and Ken and Margie got there later. 

Now the church is having its 140th anniversary, and a church worker named Giovanna has been collecting photos of past decades and putting them up in the church.  Among the display set in the 1960s, Ken recognized the photo of Elena's third-grade class with Mrs. Greco--and there she was, eight-year-old Elena seated with her class.

 "She managed to show up," I said.  It was amazing that, in a way, all four of us were there.

When we told Giovanna the story, she said to us, "You were meant to be here tonight."

We said we would come back someday and help her identify the people in those photographs.

 

 


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Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Tales of the glories of Christmases long long ago
Mood:  suave

Remember a few years ago I said I wish I could write a Christmas story?  Well, I just did.  Actually, I'd written it 22 years ago, since it's from diary entries from 1986.  As I wrote, I noticed the day-to-date pattern was the same as this year's!

 I may have included too much extraneous information.  I suppose I should give my brain a day or two to cool off, then edit what I wrote.  Yet, I think I'll be reading it over on the way home.  (I'm at the office now.)

 It's 6:45, and I probably won't get home in time to catch the start of The Nutcracker on Channel 13, which starts at 8pm, I think.  I should get going now!

 


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Tuesday, December 16, 2008
We drank a toast to innocence...
Mood:  sad

How can I say this?  Happy Birthday to someone long gone, whom I didn't know well enough and yet deeply touched me.  Someone whom I had too little contact with.

  

I was at AIDSQuilt.org hoping to search the panels, but the panel search has been out of commission for years now?  Why?  Are they afraid of people stealing images?

Look at what else they have:

 

 

 


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Monday, December 1, 2008
Go to Sleep

The wake was Friday and the funeral was Saturday.  I have put, or will put, some details of the last week in my main blog:

Living in Interesting Times:  http://blog.360.yahoo.com/blog-U4HEIkY8daqtGh5EdQw5FQ--?cq=1     http://360.yahoo.com/mnl_1221

As I hadn't managed to get any cheerleading items into my Operation Christmas Child box, I found another opportunity at, of all places, the funeral home, Martin A. Gleason in Bayside.  They had a box collecting toys for a local hospital.  Between wake sessions Friday, on my way back from the restaurant, I stopped at a Rite-Aid along the way and picked up a cheerleader doll: African-American, with a blue uniform with a white M on the front.

(I couldn't find the actual image, so I've substituted here an American Girl doll.)

Now I hadn't cried much over my sister's death, even though I was there when it happened.  However, I did have some pains over the past few weeks, in my stomach or heart, gut, back, and even my breasts.  I've been a lot gassier, too.  I wondered if this was stress and suppressed grief, or holiday eggnog I've had since Halloween.  I cried some late at the wake, not out of grief but out of pain and fear for my own health.  Joanne said she'd never seen me cry before--which is a shock, because I cry pretty easily.  Maybe Elena and her kids haven't given me much cause to cry these past 20 years.  (Well, there was the baby shower when she was pregnant with Angela, but I won't go into that now.)  I described the pains to Becky and she said it sounded like gas.

I felt this lack of crying wasn't healthy and my body may be expressing its grief in gas.  (Am I being too graphic?)

Yesterday at church, Thanksgiving Sunday and the First Sunday of Advent, we had a chance to give testimony, and I did, cramming in Mom's death two years ago and Elena's death now and my new screenplay.  I said that I hadn't had my big breakdown yet, but "hopefully it will come soon".

I ate at Pop's Diner, and went to take a nap in one of the church's lounge rooms.  As I lay down on the couch, the song "Go To Sleep (Slumber Deep)" from Babes in Toyland, aka The March of the Wooden Soldiers, came to mind.  Then I thought of that song, and whatever lyrics I knew of it, in terms of Elena--the sleep of death, God watching over her.  I imagined her not as she was in the casket, but as a little girl or teenager or young woman in her 20s in that brown dress she wore in third grade for her school photo.  Then I started tearing up and crying in earnest--not sobbing aloud, but really crying.

 

Now I had a key to doing some emotional work.  I wanted to get this done--or at least on its way--before I went back to work the next day. 

I'd gone back to the church to participate in the first of that evening's two Advent contempletive services.  After that, I bought a Sunday News, went home, then went out to the local Internet cafe.  I searched Babes in Toyland at Wikipedia, then searched for the song on Youtube.  I couldn't find the lyrics except on pdf of sheet music, so I typed the lyrics up best as I could interpret them.  I wept as I listened to the song over and over again.

I went home with the lyrics.  On my bed I sang the song as I cried in earnest, including some sobs and little wails.

I'm tearing up a little now, but my shift here at work is almost done.  (We're allowed to use the computer during our "down" time.)

https://jscholarship.library.jhu.edu/handle/1774.2/11119?show=full

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oWxRyNSUUkI

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9Sx-HKMMbZ0

BTW, I haven't felt much gas since last night.

 


Posted by mnl_1221 at 5:24 PM EST
Updated: Monday, December 1, 2008 6:13 PM EST
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Wednesday, November 26, 2008
I'll have a blue Christmas without you
Mood:  lazy
Now Playing: Blue Christmas by The Partridge Family on Youtube

So we've been calling around and visiting and writing the obit and selecting scripture passages and songs.  The wake will be Friday and the funeral Saturday.  Tomorrow for Thanksgiving, Rachel has volunteered to do all the cooking, which she was planning to do this year anyway.  She might make duck or goose instead of turkey.

I'm going to share the contents of the Operation Christmas Child box I made in tribute to Elena...now, in memory of her. 

At a local Target store, I found this African-American Ballerina Barbie with the blue legs.  This is because Elena was a disco dancer, and also did African dance in high school.  I also found disco ball necklace and wooden school bus at Target.

I didn't get anything that had to do with cheerleading.

I included a pink rubber ball (reminiscent of Spaulding), a candy version of Monopoly...

I'm drawing a blank now, and I've already spent a lot of time online today!  I'll see if I remember more later.

 


Posted by mnl_1221 at 6:36 PM EST
Updated: Monday, December 1, 2008 5:24 PM EST
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Monday, November 24, 2008
We'll have to muddle through somehow
Mood:  blue

After about three weeks in the hospital, Elena died just before 2am this morning.  Ken, his girlfriend Margie, and I were there.  The numbers were going down on the machines, then the heart rate went to 0.  I called out, "Ken.  Look at what's happening."  He and Margie had fallen asleep, as I had too at times.  

Sometime later, the four kids, then Becky and Rachel, came back to the hospital to say their goodbyes.  We also handled some papers for an autopsy.  The main cause was cancer, of course, but we want to know specifically what happened.

 Now we're gathered at Elena's house with the kids and a few friends of theirs, choosing a church and shopping for a funeral home.

Ken and Margie had been playing disco tunes on the computer that night--"Elena's All-Night Disco Party".  After she died, they resumed, and the tune that came on was the Bee Gees' "You Should Be Dancing".  Margie said, "Maybe she is."

  


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Saturday, November 15, 2008
Down and Out in Queens, NY
Mood:  down

It's a rainy day, and I came online to check e-mail and pay bills.  Thankfully, I've been able to catch up partly on a mountain of utility bills that started building in the late spring.  I think I'm currently flat-even or close to it on a couple of bills, and that probably won't last long.

Anyway, I said I wanted to record what I gave last year.

Early in December I mailed to Elena the Jackson Five Christmas album on CD, plus an old Scholastic anthology of 14 Christmas stories.  I got the latter item for myself as well.

  

       

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I probably gave Mim's Christmas Jam to Becky and Rachel, and An Angel Just Like Me and The All-I'll-Ever-Want Christmas Doll to Elena and her family.  I also gave Dover Thrift books to the five kids, homemade bookmarks in their image, and a little bit of cash.  I stumbled upon Empty Stockings, a novel about a teenaged Irish Catholic Brooklyn boy and his poor family in Christmas 1963, just after the Kennedy assassination.  Ken was about the same age as the boy at that time, and I gave Ken the book.

I was thinking of being here only a couple of hours, and then go watch American Beauty on broadcast TV (I saw it in the theater years ago), but instead I stayed here.  I'll probably go do some Operation Christmas Child shopping tonight.  I'll probably see Elena again tomorrow.

Yesterday evening the Kairos group had a Thanksgiving celebration.  At the new leader Angela's request, I presented the story of how Thanksgiving became a national holiday.  I'm probably seen as the group's bookworm or scholar, because when they saw the two handouts I prepared, cut from two Internet articles, they guessed that this was my handiwork.

Of Harvest, Prayer, and Football
A History of Thanksgiving
http://www.randomhistory.com/2008/10/23_thanksgiving.html

Thanksgiving (United States)   http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Thanksgiving_(United_States)

In fact, Becky called me this morning seeking my advice over our Thanksgiving plans.

The current crisis aside, I suppose what I'll give this year will be along the line of books or music or videos or scented lotions, unless some unusual idea strikes my head.  However, I think it may make more sense to try to overcome a looming problem--namely my messiness--which I'll have to do anyway.  Most likely I won't be able to stay in the house in which I live.  Nothing to do with the mortgage crisis, but with my mom's estate and the family's wishes. 

We all have a lot of work ahead of us.

 


Posted by mnl_1221 at 6:23 PM EST
Updated: Saturday, November 15, 2008 6:35 PM EST
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Thursday, November 13, 2008
Joy
Mood:  chillin'

I just wanted to record this to remind me:

http://www.msbgifts.com/Joy--Holiday-Elements_p_150-1236.html

They have a Mother one as well:

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

http://www.msbgifts.com/Mother--Elements-_p_150-1105.html


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Monday, November 10, 2008
Hard Candy Christmas
Mood:  blue

Okay, time to reopen the annual Christmasblog!  It's November 10, and the Christmas street decorations were being put up today in Corona, Queens, and they're already up--or starting to get up--in Forest Hills and Flushing.

This is going to be a tough one.  Elena is sick with cancer--perhaps terminally.  This is her third bout in four or five years.  It started as breast cancer and now it's spread to her lungs and brain.  She's in ICU now, in and out of sedation.

Joanne came down from college for a few days.  She, Leila, and their father Scott were at the hospital yesterday.  Ken and his girlfriend Margie have been at Elena's place nearly every night, doing things like grocery shopping and cooking and paying rent.  Becky is keeping on top of things medically.  I spend a couple of days at Elena's house last week.  I did some dishes, and I also took a lot of sheets and towels to the laundry.  Brandon has been spending quite a few nights at a friend's house.  Angela, when I was there, has been in her room watching TV and doing her homework.

I have to admit: I'm not that great when it comes to dealing with sickness.  I saw Elena in the hospital Halloween night, in my Female Joker outfit, before I went down to Greenwich Village.  I was going to visit her last Monday, bringing a book I'd found, but I left the office late and the transportation connections were bad.  The next day she had a seizure and went into ICU. 

I visited yesterday.  Ken and Becky were helping Elena sit up, and Margie was holding her feet--which I did sometimes--but I sat nearby watching and sometimes helping a little like writing notes.  At one point Ken was trying to decode a message Elena was giving us, which turned out to be "Get me out of here".  She's nowhere near ready to come home, of course.  Now she has improved since a few days ago.  We also sang a little, very softly, and prayed together.

I'm going to shift gears a little here.

Once again it's time for Operation Christmas Child.  We're not having a churchwide drive this year.  I'd wanted to do it in Kairos, but we couldn't pull it together, though I do want to suggest the members might do it individually.  The drive this year is November 17-23.

In the light of the closings of Shea Stadium and the current Yankee Stadium, I've bought over the last couple of months items related to baseball, including a soft toy Yankees bat and ball, and a stuffed Beanie Baby bear in a Mets uniform. There's also Mets and Yankees stationery, baseball-themed stationery, Yankees Pez dispensers, a couple of foam rubber baseballs from a local 99-cent store, and three baseball beanbags I picked up at a birthday party for my cousin Cherri's sons.

As I did a box in memory of Mom two years ago, now I want to do one in honor of Elena.  I know this isn't top priority now, but it's on my mind.  I spotted a black cheerleader doll in a local Rite Aid, or I might try to find an Afr-Am cheerleader Barbie.  Elena owned a Fashion Barbie, with a brunette, blonde, and red wig, in the early 1960s.  She was also a cheerleader in high school and college, as well as a champion disco dancer later on, with Scott as her partner.  She has a few secretarial jobs, and later became an elementary school teacher.  She was going for her Masters in elem ed in an accelerated program, and was all but finished with her last semester when this third bout of cancer hit.

http://www.amazon.com/tag/bratz%20boyz%20adventure/glance

I wanted to write about last year's gifts, with the help of my Amazon.com order history, but I'm out of time now.

 

 

 


Posted by mnl_1221 at 8:18 PM EST
Updated: Monday, November 10, 2008 8:42 PM EST
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Tuesday, December 18, 2007
Las Posadas
Mood:  incredulous

I've been desiring Las Posadas.  It's a Mexican tradition, or Latin American, from December 16-24, in which participants walk from door to door re-enacting Joseph and Mary seeking shelter in Bethlehem.  I've done it once, about four years ago, on or around my birthday.  My siblings and I went to this Hispanic celebration in Manhattan, and a group went out enacting Las Posadas in and around Washington Square Park (or was it Union Square Park?).

I even put a question up at answers.yahoo.com, "Where can you do Las Posadas in New York City?"

Last night, on my way home, which is in a partly Hispanic neighborhood, on my block as I was carrying a few groceries, I heard a group coming up behind me singing.  This was around 8:55, and I was rushing home to see "The Rise and Fall of the City of Mahagonny" on PBS.  I turned around and saw a group of about fifty people walking, some of them carrying lyric sheets, singing in Spanish.  As the approached, I asked the man in front, "Are you doing Las Posadas?"  He said yes.  I stepped aside and watched them as they passed.  I couldn't understand most of the words they were singing, but they sang solemnly, in low tones.  Someone, probably the man in front, carried a censer, and the sweet incense filled my nostrils. 

After the group passed, I followed behind.  Now I walk with a cane, so by the time I reached my own house, the group was already way ahead of me on the next block.  I watched them a minute or two, then went inside, just in time to catch "Mahagonny" beginning.  ("Whiskey Bar", aka "The Alabama Song", which was recorded by the doors, is the second song in the opera.  Audra McDonald sang the lead.)

How about that?  I go looking for Las Posadas, and it comes to me!

I'm now going to look at a Posada or two on Youtube.com.

 http://www.daily-word-of-life.com/xmas.htm

 


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